Monday, January 25, 2010


Sorry for the delay in posting - to be honest I think I was avoiding the inevitable. I had a disappointing weigh-in - I managed to gain 2lbs this week. It's not that I'm disappointed in the weight gain, because to be honest, I thought it would be more - I'm disappointed in myself. I had an absolutely horrible and off track week and I deserved ever ounce of that weight gain - and am really disappointed in myself for letting it happen. Pretty much failed all of my goals - even the one about tracking seemed to go out the window this week. I also didn't bother to take my own advice. When my week started to turn sour instead of treating the next day like a new one, I just continued on down the wrong track. So here I sit, with yet another set back and I am trying to find the resolve to keep going. In that spirit, I am NOT going to make any personal goals for this week specifically (although I am going to work on the same ones from last week again). Instead, my "goal" is to treat each day as a fresh start - no matter how yesterday went, I am going to go into each day believing I can stay on track. Hopefully this will help to get going again. I suppose I had an ok start to my week today, I had a hamburger and fries for lunch (not the best choice I'll admit, but man was it gooooood!) BUT I went to the gym after work and when I went to Subway for dinner I managed to say NO to the cookies!!! A small victory I know but you have to focus on the small things because sometimes if you look at the big picture, you can get discouraged.

I came across another interesting article today to share with you - "52 Ways to Lose a Pound a Week". Now this isn't really a list of things that you can check off one by one because not all of them apply to everyone, but there are some really good ideas about eating and exercise that are pretty easy to incorporate into your routine - I'm sure there will be a few things that will seem relevant to you.

I was going to talk about something else tonight but it has totally escaped me right now - if I think of it I'll add it later.

Sorry for the lousy post today - I'm kinda tired so I know I'm probably not making a whole lot of sense.

Thursday, January 21, 2010


Today was a horribly frustrating food day for me. No matter what I ate, it never seemed to fill me up! It felt like all I did all day long was eat! Even now, I feel hungry even though I had a great dinner only an hour ago. I don't get it and it is very frustrating because I know I went way over my daily points trying to fill myself up. I also seemed to be extremely tired today, even though I got plenty of sleep last night. I am wondering if the two things might be related, but I don't really see how. This hasn't been the first time I've had a "bottomless pit" day, and I absolutely HATE THEM! They don't happen very often but when they do, I almost feel like I have lost all control.

I planned on going to the gym today after work - I took my gym clothes with me and everything - but when I left work I was so tired and hungry that I skipped the gym and came straight home. That also annoys me because I wanted to go to the gym, not because I like it but because I know it is good for me and I am trying to get back into the habit.

Ugh, today was a horrible day - hopefully tomorrow will be a better one!!

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Just a Thought

I got an e-mail today that had the following quote in it and I thought I would share it because I think it's perfect for those of us trying to lose weight:

Courage does not always roar. Sometimes it is a quiet voice at the end of the day, saying…"I will try again tomorrow."

~Mary Anne Radmacher

If nothing else, my (very long and continuing) weight loss journey has taught me that it is always important to just keep trying. Have a bad hour? That doesn't mean you give up on the whole day. Have a bad day? Doesn't mean you give up on the week - you get the point. I know that there have been many days where I have over-eaten or over-indulged and thought to myself, well, the whole day is blown now, I might as well eat whatever I want! This is definitely not the attitude to have. The important thing is to keep on trying - there is always tomorrow!! One setback - one too many slices of cake/pizza/cookies/etc. doesn't make you a failure - as long as you try again tomorrow. What is that old saying? Quitters never win and winners never quit - that's how I plan on approaching my weight loss journey - just keep trying and don't give up. Eventually, I know I will get there!

So now that I have gotten THAT out of my system - it appears that today is my one day for Subway cookies. BUT I did manage to drink my 6c of water AND make it to the gym, so the day wasn't a total failure.

I came across this article today and I thought it was really interesting and definitely rang true for me - portion control is definitely one of my biggest challenges. I love food. I love everything about it - the smell, the look, the taste - so I want to get as much of it as I can. As horrible as it is to admit this, there have even been times (yes, plural) where I have eaten so much that I have actually made myself sick - LITERALLY in the bathroom, over the toilet SICK. The shame and guilt I felt during those events just hammer home the point to me about the importance of proper portion control. As my WW leader always says, it's not like you are never going to have it again!! There is no need eat so much you make yourself sick. Anyway, I digress - here are the tips from the article - I hope you get something from them.

8 ways to reduce your portions

1. Wait 10 Minutes

This is one that is really hard for me. It is a scientific fact that it takes your stomach at least 10min to register it is full and relay that message to your brain. That is why it is important to stop and rest and think about whether or not you REALLY need to eat more. I have always been a fast eater, and the fact that I love food so much just makes it worse. I eat as much as I can as fast as I can and then end up stuffed. I am really working on slowing myself down and taking time to eat my meal. I try to take a serving, eat it slowly, then THINK about whether I am really hungry for more (as in actual hunger) or whether I just WANT more because it is good.

2. Leave the "clean plate" club

This one kind of ties in to #1. Just because you have x amount of food on your plate doesn't mean you need to eat that much. Listen to your body and when it says you are satisfied, push the plate away! I know this one is especially hard for some people who really don't like to waste food. Here are a couple of my own suggestions for dealing with this one. I'm sure you've heard this one before, but if you are eating out, chances are the portion you get will be at least twice as much as you need, so ask for a take out container right away and put half your meal in it. Out of sight, out of mind (I'm still working on this one myself). If you are at home, serve yourself less the first time around. If you are truly hungry after that, you can always have seconds - but overfilling your plate makes it more likely you will eat it all.

3. Never eat straight from a bag, box or carton.

Take your serving out of the container and put the rest away. Again, out of sight, out of mind. This also helps to prevent mindless snacking in front of the tv - that bag of chips can be gone in no time without you even realizing it. Instead, put the amount you want to eat in a bowl - when it's gone, your done.

4. Like big? Then go for the healthy stuff.

This is one that I have heard over and over in a variety of forms. Fill half your plate with vegetables first, then the higher fat & calorie foods on the rest of the plate. Start your meal with a large salad or bowl of soup (broth based - sorry cream doesn't count!) to avoid over eating during the main course. If you are planning on going out to a party/dinner/wedding/insert challenging event here and are afraid of the foods that will be served or being able to control yourself, eat a large salad or bowl of soup just before you leave - again, you'll be less likely to overindulge if you don't arrive starving!

5. Think small

This one talks about using smaller plates for your meals (lunch/sandwich plate instead of dinner plate). The theory behind this is that if you use a smaller plate, it automatically helps to control your portions while visually, you still see a full plate. Also included in this is opting for smaller sizes of high fat/calorie foods - e.g. small fries vs medium - junior hamburger vs. a regular one, etc.

6. Put away leftovers before eating

That way, if you want seconds, at least you'll have to actually get off your butt to get it.

7. Choose single serve

The grocery stores are FILLED with "snack packs" and single serving options. While many don't like them because of the excess packaging, they do help to control how much you eat. Basically it makes #3 irrelevant. One thing to watch with this one: some studies have shown that people tend to actually OVER eat with the single serve, 100 cal. packs because they are so convenient and accessible. Just make sure to STICK to the one package and you should be fine - just because they are only 100cals each doesn't mean you need to eat 3 of them in a sitting.

8. End with fruit

This is one that I have found to be helpful for me. I always find that after a meal I crave something sweet. Instead of turning to typical desserts that are much higher in fat (think ice cream, cookies, candy, etc.), have a piece of fruit instead. It should satisfy your sweet tooth with much fewer calories and many more nutrients. I find it best to keep things on hand so that they are ready for you. If I have to wash the grapes or cut up the pineapple, I am more likely to turn to the fast and easy chocolate bar or bowl of ice cream. If the fruit is already in the fridge and ready to go, you're more likely to take advantage of it.

Have some great portion control tricks of your own? I'd love to hear them!! Please feel free to comment - we can all use new ideas!

(**Please note: the eight portion control points are straight from the article, and the rest is a combination of their explanations and my own ideas - please no one sue me for copywright or plagarism or anything!)

That's it for today - and remember: tomorrow is another day! JUST KEEP TRYING!

Tuesday, January 19, 2010


VERY VERY bad start to my week! Ok, so you're probably thinking - hey it's Tuesday - it's not the start of the week! Well for ME it is. As you know, I weigh in at WW on Monday nights - that means my WW week begins on Tuesdays. Tuesdays is the day that I get a whole new 35 weekly points to work with (on top of my daily points target). For those of you non-Weight Watchers members out there let me explain. Every Weight Watchers member has a "daily" points target (the maximum amount of points you are supposed to eat each day). This target is a personal target based on a variety of things like age, gender, weight, job, etc. On top of that, you get 35 extra "weekly" points to spend how you want (on a special dinner, to split up each day, whatever). If you don't use your weekly 35 points, you lose them - they don't carry over to the next week (as if mine last that long anyway!). So today was the day I got a fresh 35 points to use - and guess how many of them I used today?? 21!!!!! YEAH!! Not only did I eat ALL of my daily points but I managed to inhale 21 of my 35 weekly points! That means I only have 14 extra points to last me the week. NOT GOOD!

So how did I manage to do that you ask? Well lets just say this was a day of indulgence! I had my normal breakfast of peanut butter toast and had a WW cookie for my morning snack. Lunch was where things started to go bad. I went out to a local restaurant with a co-worker for lunch and even though I got a lunch sized pasta, between that and the bread it still managed to eat up almost half of my daily points. THEN, after work I went to see a movie with a friend. So that meant dinner in the mall food court and OF COURSE I had to get some popcorn for the show!! So that is how I managed to eat my way through an INSANE amount of points for one day. GREAT start to my week!

On the positive side, I definitely managed to get my 6c of water in today (and consequently spent half the day in the washroom!). The plan for tomorrow is to get to the gym and try and earn myself an extra few points for the week!!

P.S. I went to see Leap Year so check out my movie review blog here to read my review!

Monday, January 18, 2010

I give up!!

Well, I don't REALLY give up - I'm definitely still trying to lose weight. What I give up is trying to understand exactly how weight loss works (at least for me anyway!). I lost 1.6lbs this week - and I have NO IDEA how!

Lets recap with my goals for the week shall we??

1) Keep tracking

Ok well I did pretty well on this one - but like I said in my last post, WHAT I was tracking was a completely different story.

2) Stay within points target

FAIL!! I went WAY over my points for the week - which definitely adds to my lack of understanding of my pretty decent weight loss this week.

3) Gym 3 times

Pass - I managed to haul my ass to the gym 3 times this week - which MAY have helped counter-balance the failure in goal #2 a LITTLE bit - but again, not enough to account for the weight loss.

4) Subway cookies - lets just not even talk about this one.

5) Increase water consumption

This one I think I am going to void because I have to admit it was a pretty lame goal - too vague!

So, to sum it all up? I DON'T GET IT!!!

Goals for this week are going to be very similar to last weeks - only with a few slight modifications:

Keep tracking, stay within points target, gym 3 times, only get cookies at Subway ONCE this week (because obviously going cold turkey [no pun intended!] doesn't work so well for me!!), drink at least 6 cups of water each day (see me getting all specific with this one!!) hehehehe.

So there you have it - I have no idea why last week went so well when it seemed like it WASN'T going well at all - so I may as well try and keep it up this week!!

CHEAP PLUG TIME!! I am a very big reader and I also LOVE movies - so in an attempt to keep myself busy I have 2 other blogs going - one is reviews of the different books that I read and the other is movie reviews. Keep in mind they are works in progress!! I am slowly trying to add reviews to them as I see new films and read new books, while also trying to bulk them up with some older things! Please check them out and feel free to comment!!


Friday, January 15, 2010


So it is now Friday afternoon and I am SLIGHTLY worried about Monday's weigh in. It seemed that ANY willpower I had decided to go on vacation this week. So lets check in with the weekly goals shall we?

1) keep tracking - so far, so good - although WHAT I am tracking is a completely different story

2) attempt to stay within my points target - so far, NOT so good. Although I have been tracking all week, like I said, many of the things that I have been eating (and therefore tracking) have been not so good choices. What, you might ask? See #4

3) get to the gym at least 3 times - again, so far, so good. I have been to the gym twice so far this week and I am planning on going for sure on Sunday, and possibly tomorrow as well - so that will take care of THIS goal at least.

4) hehehehehe - I think they are going to have to invent a new word for FAIL after today because I did WAY MORE than fail. If you will notice, I posted those goals at 10:55am. Guess what I had for LUNCH that day?? YUP, those DAMN subway cookies just jumped into my bag (and maybe, possibly, the next night too). Ugh, I think I will have to make this a goal for next week too.

5) try and increase water consumption. Ok this is another goal that I am doing pretty well on, although I have to admit it was a pretty general goal.

So not too sure how Monday is going to go - a little scared about it - but hey, I guess there is always next week!

P.S. I HAVE 5 FOLLOWERS NOW!!! I know it's kinda lame to be so excited that only 5 people are reading my blog but YAY! Please keep reading, and commenting - and if you have any advice or topic suggestions PLEASE let me know! THANK YOU!!

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

One Step Forward, Two Steps Back ...

Well, I guess in this particular case it would be two steps forward, one step back - story of my life really. As I mentioned in my last post, I have started "tracking" again and the first week went really well. Last week, even though I managed to track every day (which is definitely an accomplishment!), I ate way more food than I should have (or needed), and did not exercise, and low and behold, at last night's weigh in I was up almost a pound and a half! Bad news: that SUCKS! - good news: if you look at both weeks together I am still down in weight, which is definitely good.

Speaking of the gym and my lack of physical activity - let me just say that my back was not at ALL happy with me going to the gym again. I woke up yesterday morning with the worst backache! I guess it's my own fault for being so lazy over the holidays!

Anyway, goals for this week:

1) keep tracking
2) attempt to stay within my points target
3) get to the gym at least 3 times (FYI, I have my gym bag with me at work today so one of those three times should be taking place tonight!)
4) avoid Subway cookies!!!
5) try and increase my water consumption (which I'm sure my bladder will not be happy with)

Stay tuned for the results!!

Sunday, January 10, 2010


So I forgot to mention yesterday that over the holidays I made it to the gym about as often as I managed to post on here (i.e. not at all). No good excuse really, just didn't want to get my lazy butt off the couch to go. In an attempt to get back into the habit I vowed to make it to the gym today (I SHOULD have gone yesterday too but again, my ass seemed to be super glued to the couch).

As much as I soooo did not want to go out into the frigid winter afternoon, I got my stuff all together and made my way down to the gym. After my warm up I started in with my weight circuit. Interesting note: regardless of how out of shape you are (and trust me, I am VERY out of shape), when you are in the habit of going to the gym a few times a week and then don't go for an extended period of time, it's amazing how your body rebels when you try and get back into it. I am not the type of person who likes to draw attention to myself (side effect of being a fat girl my whole life I'm sure). I don't like to do/say/wear things that will draw excess attention to me. Two things guaranteed to draw attention to someone: puking in the middle of the gym and/or fainting during a workout. There I was, in the middle of my weight routine when I found myself at serious risk of committing both attention drawing behaviours. In an attempt to avoid doing either of these things I slowly made my way back to the locker room where I stayed until I no longer felt the urge to puke turkey sub all over the gym floor (yes I went to Subway before the gym, and yes I gave in and got the cookies).

After I was sure that I had my stomach and it's contents under control I made my way back into the gym to try some cardio. Hopefully my next gym excursion is a little less eventful and a little more effective.

Strange thought of the week: Speaking of Subway, for all of those Subway addicts such as myself out there - Have you ever noticed that when you eat in the restaurant, when you leave, everything you had with you (clothes, hair, bag, etc.) smell like Subway? Not that this is necessarily a bad thing, it's just strange to open your gym locker after a workout and get a big whiff of bread and cheese. Anyway, just a random thought that popped into my head!

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Updates Updates!

I can't believe how long it has been since my last post - no excuse for it really - just never did it. It has been a busy but yet uneventful few weeks what with Christmas and New Years.

Ok, so lets talk numbers. Over the month of December I did go up a little bit, but I have to say I had one of my most successful holiday seasons ever in terms of controlling myself and watching what I ate. I was able (for the most part) to stay away from all the holiday goodies floating around the house and office and tried to concentrate on making better food choices. Overall, I think it went pretty well! In years past I used the holiday season as an excuse to eat whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted, and in absolutely ridiculous amounts. Let me make one thing perfectly clear right now, I was definitely NOT PERFECT. I ate things I didn't need to eat and I had a Christmas dinner plate big enough to feed a small country, but I learned to use a little bit of self control.

New Years has never been a big deal for me. Sometimes I go out with friends to a party but just as often I stay home, and I have to admit I almost prefer staying home. I'm also not a big resolution maker either. I have made a few in the past, and usually they had something to do with weight loss, but they never lasted long. So, this year when New Years rolled around I decided NOT to make a resolution about losing weight specifically, but rather I committed to "tracking". For those of you not familiar with the whole Weight Watchers program, tracking is a very big part of it. Basically it involves writing down everything you eat and drink every day and keeping track of the "points" associated with those things. I know it sounds like a big fat pain in the ass (and it is), BUT it also works! It definitely makes you a lot more aware of what you are eating, watching your portion sizes and makes you think about whether you want to eat that granola bar because you are actually hungry or because you just feel like eating something. I find it helps to give me a bit more self control because I actually stop and think about whether I want to waste points on something when I'm not really hungry.

Anyway, to get to the point, my new years "resolution" was to start tracking again. I did it regularly when I first started WW, but gradually started slacking - thinking I didn't really need to write it down - that keeping track in my head was good enough. It wasn't. I started tracking again on Dec. 29 and haven't missed a day yet. I have to say it definitely paid off. After one week of tracking I lost 2.4lbs! I weigh in again on Monday and while I hope to have lost more weight I am not expecting nearly that big of a loss because even though I have tracked everything, I have gone over my points for the week (i.e. eaten more than I needed to) so we'll see how it goes.

I guess that's it for today, I promise to try and post more frequently from now on!